ourhellhouse | tbh i'm just making an open post so i can do whatever here

tbh i'm just making an open post so i can do whatever here

one of these days i should make an actual like, account for stuff and make it look cute but why would i ever do that

[You help people for thousands of years and this is how they treat you! He pouts, which probably isn't helping his case very much.]

I was really worried that everything I worked for, that you worked for... that it'd all be erased by Michael. That was exactly the type of Shepherd I wanted to stop. That's why... I'm really grateful, Sorey!

[ Oh my god it's drooping. This is going to be the best next couple hundred years of his unnaturally extended life.

His hand stills when Maotelus mentions Michael, his mouth set in a thin line and he crouches next to him so they're closer to eye level than he was before. ]

If you were worried then it really is a miracle I managed to do anything.

Maotelus, do you know why some Sheperds end up like Micheal? Do you think....if I had been around longer, I would have ended up like him too?

I think it's inherently part of the Shepherd. If I had a choice, I wouldn't have continued it, but... the legend survived despite everything. Somehow it's lasted longer than even belief in the Empyreans. But one person shouldn't have to bear the pain of the entire world. One person can't make a decision on behalf of everyone else. That's why I thought if I had multiple Shepherds, it would be alright... But as faith in the malakhim and the Empyreans dwindled, the amount of Shepherds did as well.

Michael was one of the few who could still hear me. He reminded me a lot of the first Shepherd, or what he could have been. I wanted to believe it could all work out this time. I thought maybe he could be happy in that village... with his family. But it was those same feelings that led him astray.

Ah, I don't mean that those feelings were a bad thing! It's just... I was probably too hopeful to realize that history was repeating itself.

But I also don't think you would've followed in his footsteps, Sorey. There was a small chance, yes, but because you had your friends at your side you were able to save me. What's that thing Lailah used to say? About regrets and all that? Whenever you tried to close yourself off or wallow in the past, your friends were there to stop you. They believed in you and you believed in them. And I think that's your real power!

[ He nods, trying to comprehend how years of history had been twisted and ruined and begins picking on the loose stringy bits of fabric peeling off his glove. ]

When we were reaching the end of our journey, a small part of me thought it might have been wrong to try and make things go back to the way they used too. Alisha had to leave, I put Mikleo in danger, Dezel...

But, I loved living in Elysia. I love the Ser- malakhim and that pushed me. Knowing Micheal was corrupted by what made him happy, how it hurt Mikleo. It was...hard. It was like having to kill your own hero.

I'm just glad that, I had some time to stop and think about it now. I tired to be like Rose and not think about things because if I did, then it would have been too much, even with everyone at my side.

[ He stops picking at the leather and looks at Maotelus again. ]

It's probably silly coming from a human who hasn't lived very long, but I don't think anyone can fault you for wanting to be hopeful for a better world.

... I wish you didn't have to go through all this in the first place. But then again, that's wishing for a perfect world, isn't it?

[He lets out a small sigh.]

I don't think it's silly at all. When I became an Empyrean, I was... well, I guess I had really only been myself for less than a year. But I was technically ten years old at the time. Still, the first Shepherd was much older than either of us. But the first Lord of Calamity was 16 when she became a daemon. Oh, um, what I'm trying to say is! Age isn't really all that important! You may have more experience with age, but it's the type of experiences that really matter.

[ He ruffles Maotelus's hair at that, what a fluffy Empyrean. ]

Even if it was difficult, I'm glad it happened. If it hadn't then I probably would have just lived a normal and slow human life and had to leave everyone behind when I got too old to keep on living.

So, if experiences are what matters, then the world you left behind was what gave me the experiences I needed to have a life worth living.

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tbh i'm just making an open post so i can do whatever here

yeah cuz you killed eizen?

this wasn't how to train your dragon maotelus

HE'S MY FRIEND

and now he's dead

BECAUSE OF YOU

we can't all kill everyone for our friends